Chemo

Dissecting this database of pornography at my fingertips, I ponder the fickleness of fate. Do lovers fall together or fall from dreams? The latest one rests as I drag her body across stones and thorns. A crimson snake follows us on this path, as if to say “Life is cancer.” She lays at peace in her decorative soil coffin. This makeshift graveyard is beautiful with the leaves falling like corpses from rotted nooses. It's so easy to envy the beautiful and their ignorance to the world. I sometimes wish for the privilege of sleeping next to them sometimes. To feel warm next to their frost as the leukemia swallows us all.

The Innocence Of A Little Girl

"You'll always be mommy's little angel" she told me
Right before I stabbed her in the neck with scissors
Red geyser pulsing like the lies from her mouth
The gash could never match my lacerations
Constellation of terror adorned on my back
Family nights of "beat the failed little sister"
Dear brother can't scream in ecstasy anymore
His neck caressed with a jump rope from the ceiling fan
Daddy will never mark me with unrestrained pleasure
Too difficult with his dick in a meat grinder
Bastard family wilted as frosted sunflowers
The abused became the abuser (eye for a knife)
Wearing that crimson shoe, I am finally a princess

M/S

In a quick glance, we seem perectly fine
But cancer grips her spirit and regret grips mine

Chemicals cause her to purge it all to the ground
I can't help but cringe anticipating that sound

It's all left her with nothing but flesh covering bone
Her spirit is gone, and everything else she has known

Like the sun struggling to break through winter's cold
I can do nothing but watch her crumble and grow old

So many nights we sat, contemplating existence
So many obstacles blocking the light in the distance

There are only a few ways to take away this type of pain
But you can't accomplish any of them without leaving a stain

Tonight I'll take away all these negative things we feel
Lay it all to rest forever with two chunks of steel